Hidup dan Mati

Mati bertanya..
ketika hidup bermakna
apa perlu ada Rasa?

hidup menjawab..
ketika mati terlaksana
tangisan bermakna rasa..

old hobby comes back

i'm just thinkin' and...

eng ing eng....

piano was painted by me..painted with paint program in windows,rite??

gutgut...

although little messy all around,i felt great to did my old hobby...:))))

why????

heheehe...
i dunno why now, i like to make poems...
hmmm in fact, i do shame to publish all mine, coz i am too shame....:)))

like this day,this aftern i just made one more...:P

here's da poem:

barely you

rain cloud comes and bring grey

felt it was yesterday when i said goodbye

oh my,too hard to feeling nice

just distracted ,saw you're gone

i've tried to abolish those memories

again and again staring you

waitin' on my clock,relized my side

filling here with emptiness

ground kept me, all secretly

a lay on my fairy tears

i broke both my wings

changed them into reality and shape myself

forgetin' shallow dream..

take a sorrowfull to make me breath

cuting your snare and getting free

i do strong enough to bring my steps

leavin' all my past

btw, i've made song's lyric..

is there any of you want to make the melody for me, i can't make it well...:DDD

ketika aku mulai...lupa..

telah kucoba...menangis...
menangis dan menangis...
tapi,andai aku bisa..
akan selalu kubuat air mataku mengalir..
bukan membeku dan menguap
bukan membatu dan terlupakan
ingin...rasanya tertawa
namun aku telah kehilangan warna
tak akan pernah ada kata
bersama memudarnya senyumku
hatiku kini tertutup...
rapat,terpendam jauh disana
semua itu bohong..
apakah mereka tahu bohong itu menyakitkan??
racun...
terlalu sakit untuk terucap atau terlihat
sampai aku lupa ternyata...
aku telah berbeda
aku..tak seperti dulu
aku mendingin,mungkin akan mati...
mati dalam hatiku juga senyumku...

MIRROR

mirror on the wall
stared along the aged
adored behind the night
stayed always..above the cloud...

mirror on the wall
tell me that you'll here with me
give me heart,so i can see the ground

mirror..mirror..my old friend...
don't be sad while the sky painted, grey...
me..here standing just for you

Oh my dear..
we will walk through the heaven
sail together on the wings
dance happily across the stars
and sing a sound of dreams...hopes...

you my live...
don't you cry..
i'll leave the smile...
though my eyes freze with tears
never past and go with..
ceaselessly me and you..

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[CHORUS:]When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
-[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
[my immortal-evanescence-]

kisah dewi angin

ketika angin bernyayi
pagi berkabut..
tersembunyi..
sepi..
tidak awan,matahari, lembah , sungai atau pun pelangi
tidak juga gunung dan pepohonan
ya..
tidak satupun meniup nada, menebar canda , mengores tawa...
semua kelabu..
sibuk menghalangi..
dan juga..
menangis...
sang angin berputar,melompat,berlari,dan pergi..
menyelinap dan meratap..
berkelana mencari kata..
dan juga menebar air matanya..
membagi..kesedihan..
tanpa tahu siapa terpikat..
andai..
dewi angin meminta..
mungkin..
seseorang akan menerima..
merasa..
atau pun menyambut...
ya..
andai dewi ...
meminta..